Faith

The Beginning

Growing up I was raised in a Christian household.  I went to Sunday school, attended youth group, and had a basic knowledge of God.  During my teenage years, I had a troubling experience with a group of Christians at my church.  The way they treated me gave me doubts, I lost my faith and ignored it for years.

When I got into high school I started making some poor choices, I got sucked into the wrong crowd and continuously got myself into trouble.  Because of my behavior, my parents enrolled me in a private, Christian, school.  Even being at a school where the curriculum was based around the bible, I still wanted nothing to do with it.  It was as if everything that was talked about went in one ear, out the other.  It wasn’t until I met my boyfriend, who was also dubious about his faith, for me to start getting back into mine.  Despite the effort I put into my relationship with God, I was still lukewarm. I wasn’t fully committed to Christ like I should have been.

Thru my pregnancy my faith grew stronger.  I couldn’t believe my eyes as I watched my stomach grow bigger and bigger, I thought to myself there has to be some kind of explanation, how could our bodies do something so amazing, and so complex.  Right before I gave birth to Keolanui my boyfriend and I got baptized, it was my first time.  My pregnancy was confirmation to me that there is a higher power.  Something so amazing like having a baby couldn’t have started from a giant explosion, It had to have been well thought out and planned.

Recently I’ve felt like I should be doing something more, something to better myself.  I had been praying for a way to put my time to good use.  I got the idea to make a blog about being a young mother, I wasn’t sure if this was what God wanted from me.  I took a few weeks to pray about it and I kept feeling the need to dive right in.  While I started the process of creating my blog I continued to pray, God spoke to me and told me this could be a way to share my faith and my journey with Christ.  I doubted myself, I considered myself new to Christianity as a whole, but I kept getting this urging feeling to go for it, and now here I am, jumping in.  I don’t know exactly what this column will consist of, but I hope that it can help make a difference in someone’s life.  

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